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Chapter 5
AsIgotolder,Iunderstoodthedifference,andIknewIdidn’twannadie.Noteveninadream.
Somenightmaresyoucan’twakeupfrom,nomatterhowmanytimesyoutry.Me,Iwastrappedinanightmare,andnomatterhowmanytimesIwokeup,Iwasstilltrapped.ThatIknewIwascaughtinaloopIcouldn’tbreakoutofwastheworstpartofall.Ifoughtbackpanic.
Butwasitreallyhappeningtomeagain?
ThesamedayI’dalreadylivedthroughtwicewasunfoldingagainaroundme.Ormaybeitwasallanightmare,afterall.OfcoursethingswouldbehappeningthewayIrememberedthem.Itwasallinmyhead,sowhynot?
Thiswasridiculous.Ipunchedthemattress.
HadIdreamedthatblackpointflyingatme?Wasthejavelinthatshatteredmybreastplateandpiercedmychestallinmyhead?HadIimaginedtheblood,thecoughingupbitsoflung?
Letmetellyouwhathappenswhenyourlungsarecrushed.Youdrown,notinwater,butinair.Gaspashardasyoulike,crushedlungscan’tpasstheoxygenyourbodyneedstoyourbloodstream.Allaroundyou,yourfriendsarebreathinginandoutwithoutasecondthoughtwhileyoudrownaloneinaseaofair.Ineverknewthisuntilithappenedtome.I’dneverevenheardaboutit.Idefinitelyhadn’tmadethatup.Itreallyhappened.
Itdidn’tmatterifInevertoldanyone,ifnooneeverbelievedme.Itwouldstillbetrue.Thesensationithadimprintedonmymindwasproofenoughofthat.
