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           "Here,"Isaid,"wearetogetherwithoutinterruption."Thisfreedom,thisimmunity,seemedthenaconquest,andstirredinmesuchexaltationthatIsometimesgothere,evennow,tobringbackexaltationandPercival.Butitdidnotlast.Whattormentsoneisthehorribleactivityofthemind’seye--howhefell,howhelooked,wheretheycarriedhim;meninloin-cloths,pullingropes;thebandagesandthemud.Thencomestheterriblepounceofmemory,nottobeforetold,nottobewardedoff--thatIdidnotgowithhimtoHamptonCourt.Thatclawscratched;thatfangtore;Ididnotgo.Inspiteofhisimpatientlyprotestingthatitdidnotmatter;whyinterrupt,whyspoilourmomentofuninterruptedcommunity?--Still,Irepeatedsullenly,Ididnotgo,andso,drivenoutofthesanctuarybytheseofficiousdevils,wenttoJinnybecauseshehadaroom;aroomwithlittletables,withlittleornamentsscatteredonlittletables.ThereIconfessed,withtears--IhadnotgonetoHamptonCourt.Andshe,rememberingotherthings,tometriflesbuttorturingtoher,showedmehowlifewitherswhentherearethingswecannotshare.Soon,too,amaidcameinwithanote,andassheturnedtoansweritandIfeltmyowncuriositytoknowwhatshewaswritingandtowhom,Isawthefirstleaffallonhisgrave.Isawuspushbeyondthismoment,andleaveitbehindusforever.