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4:47 P.M.
Momgotpregnanttwiceandhadtwomiscarriages.Theyweresadaboutit,buttheydidn’thavethemoneytodoallthefertilitystuffthatpeopledo.BythetimeIwasnine,they’ddecidedthatmaybeitwasforthebest.Iwasbecomingindependent.Theystoppedtrying.
Asiftoconvincethemselveshowgreatitwasnottobetieddownbyababy,MomandDadboughtusticketstogovisitNewYorkforaweek.Itwassupposedtobeamusicalpilgrimage.WewouldgotoCBGB’sandCarnegieHall.Butwhentohersurprise,Momdiscoveredshewaspregnant,andthentohergreatersurprise,stayedpregnantpastthefirsttrimester,wehadtocancelthetrip.ShewastiredandsicktoherstomachandsogrumpyDadjokedthatshe’dprobablyscaretheNewYorkers.Besides,babieswereexpensiveandweneededtosave.
Ididn’tmind.Iwasexcitedaboutababy.AndIknewthatCarnegieHallwasn’tgoinganywhere.I’dgettheresomeday.
