Звездный десант
Chapter 12
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"Oh.Isee."
Fatherdidn’tsayanythingforseveralmoments.Thenhesaidsoftly,
"I’mnotsurethatyoudosee,Son."
"Sir?"
"Mmm...itwillnotbeeasytoexplain.Certainly,losingyourmotherhadagreatdealtodowithit.ButIdidn’tenrolltoavengeher—eventhoughIhadthatinmind,too.Youhadmoretodowithit—"
"Me?"
"Yes,you.Son,Ialwaysunderstoodwhatyouweredoingbetterthanyourmotherdid—don’tblameher;sheneverhadachancetoknow,anymorethanabirdcanunderstandswimming.AndperhapsIknewwhyyoudidit,eventhoughIbegtodoubtthatyouknewyourself,atthetime.Atleasthalfofmyangeratyouwassheerresentment...thatyouhadactuallydonesomethingthatIknew,burieddeepinmyheart,Ishouldhavedone.Butyouweren’tthecauseofmyjoiningup,either...youmerelyhelpedtriggeritandyoudidcontroltheserviceIchose."
Hepaused."Iwasn’tingoodshapeatthetimeyouenrolled.Iwasseeingmyhypnotherapistprettyregularly—youneversuspectedthat,didyou?--butwehadgottennofartherthanaclearrecognitionthatIwasenormouslydissatisfied.Afteryouleft,Itookitoutonyou—butitwasnotyou,andIknewitandmytherapistknewit.IsupposeIknewthattherewasrealtroublebrewingearlierthanmost;wewereinvitedtobidonmilitarycomponentsfullyamonthbeforethestateofemergencywasannounced.
