Мертвые души
Chapter 4
Or,shouldyoufeelayearningtoleavebehindyouposterity,takeinmarriageagoodwomanwhoshallbringyou,notmoney,butanaptitudeforsimple,modestdomesticlife.Butthislife—thelifeofturmoil,withitslongingsanditstemptations—forget,andletitforgetYOU;forthereisnopeaceinit.Seeforyourselfhow,ateverystep,itbringsonebuthatredandtreacheryanddeceit.”
“Indeed,yes!”agreedtherepentantChichikov.“GladlywillIdoasyouwish,sinceformanyadaypasthaveIbeenlongingtoamendmylife,andtoengageinhusbandry,andtoreordermyaffairs.Ademon,thetempterSatanhimself,hasbeguiledmeandledmefromtherightpath.”
SuddenlytherehadrecurredtoChichikovlong-unknown,long-unfamiliarfeelings.Somethingseemedtobestrivingtocometolifeagaininhim—somethingdimandremote,somethingwhichhadbeencrushedoutofhisboyhoodbythedreary,deadeningeducationofhisyouthfuldays,byhisdesolatehome,byhissubsequentlackoffamilyties,bythepovertyandniggardlinessofhisearlyimpressions,bythegrimeyeoffate—aneyewhichhadalwaysseemedtoberegardinghimasthroughamisty,mournful,frost-encrustedwindow-pane,andtobemockingathisstrugglesforfreedom.Andasthesefeelingscamebacktothepenitentagroanburstfromhislips,and,coveringhisfacewithhishands,hemoaned:“Itisalltrue,itisalltrue!”
“Oflittleavailareknowledgeoftheworldandexperienceofmenunlessbaseduponasecurefoundation,”observedMurazov.