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Chapter 13
Thethingwon’tstop.I’mjustalittlepartofit.Itwillgrowandgrow.Thispainintheshoulderiskindofpleasanttome;andIbetbeforehediedJoywasgladforamoment.JustinthatmomentIbethewasglad."
Theyheardarough,monotonousvoiceoutside,andthenafewshouts,andthentheangrycrowd-roar,abellowlikeananimalinfury."London’stellingthem,"saidJim."They’remad.Jesus,howamadcrowdcanfilltheairwithmadness.Youdon’tunderstandit,Doc.Myoldmanusedtofightalone.Whenhegotlicked,hewaslicked.Irememberhowlonelyitwas.ButI’mnotlonelyanymore,andIcan’tbelicked,becauseI’mmorethanmyself."
"Purereligiousecstasy.Icanunderstandthat.PartakersofthebloodoftheLamb."
"Religion,hell!"Jimcried."Thisismen,notGod.Thisissomethingyouknow."
"Well,can’tagroupofmenbeGod,Jim?"
Jimwrenchedhimselfaround."Youmaketoodamnmanywords,Doc.Youbuildatrapofwordsandthenyoufallintoit.Youcan’tcatchme.Yourwordsdon’tmeananythingtome.IknowwhatI’mdoing.Argumentdoesn’thaveanyeffectonme."
"Steadydown,"Burtonsaidsoothingly."Don’tgetsoexcited.Iwasn’targuing,Iwasaskingforinformation.Allofyoupeoplegetangrywhenyou’reaskedaquestion."
Astheduskturnedintonightthelanternseemedtogrowbrighter,tofinddeepercornersofthetentwithitsyellowlight.Maccameinquietly,asthoughhecreptawayfromthenoiseandshoutingoutside.
