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           Butyou’regoingsomewhere.Ithinkweallgetthat.AndthesameistrueforAdam."

           "Atleasthecangosomewherewhilestilllivinghere."

           Momshrugged."Maybe.Fornowanyhow."

           Iputmyfaceinmyhandsandshookmyhead."WhatamIgoingtodo?"Ilamented."IfeellikeI’mcaughtinatug-of-war."

           Momshotmeasympatheticgrimace."Idon’tknow.ButIdoknowthatifyouwanttostayandbewithhim,I’dsupportthat,thoughmaybeI’monlysayingthatbecauseIdon’tthinkyou’dbeabletoturndownJuilliard.ButI’dunderstandifyouchoselove,Adamlove,overmusiclove.Eitherwayyouwin.Andeitherwayyoulose.WhatcanItellyou?Love’sabitch."

           AdamandItalkedaboutitoncemoreafterthat.WewereatHouseofRock,sittingonhisfuton.Hewasriffingaboutonhisacousticguitar.

           "Imightnotgetin,"Itoldhim."Imightwindupatschoolhere,withyou.Inaway,IhopeIdon’tgetacceptedsoIdon’thavetochoose."

           "Ifyougetin,thechoiceisalreadymade,isn’tit?"Adamasked.

           Itwas.Iwouldgo.Itdidn’tmeanI’dstoplovingAdamorthatwe’dbreakup,butMomandAdamwerebothright.Iwouldn’tturndownJuilliard.

           Adamwassilentforaminute,plinkingawayathisguitarsoloudthatIalmostmisseditwhenhesaid,"Idon’twanttobetheguywhodoesn’twantyoutogo.Ifthetableswereturned,you’dletmego."

           "Ikindofalreadyhave.Inaway,you’realreadygone.ToyourownJuilliard,"Isaid.

           "Iknow,"Adamsaidquietly